sophai

I can't help but think what happen. It is really bothering me right now I feel songuilty even though I didn't even mean to do it , it still bothers me like crazy right now I can't even go to sleep because I keep thinking about it even though I'm really trying to not think bout it but ugh . I feel like a bad friend I really don't know what to say or do. I know it was a accident but it is still my fault for this to happen, it maybe just a car windshield but it's really a big deal to me I just can't stop thinking bout it. It's freaking killing me I try to not think about it even tho she say it's okay it really not okay atleast not for me. Why must this situation even happen I wish it never happen I just wanna cry it out . I felt like I did something really horrible that's all I think about is that I feel like a horrible person right now . Honestly if it wasn't for tha damn bee neon I'm the car none of this fucking shit would happen I couldnt help but spaz out I was scared now this bee made a worst situation for me atleast ugh what the fuck do I do. I feel like I can't tell anyone how bad and guilty I feel for this. We all going to be going to wet n wild and I really don't wanna think about it but inside it's gonna kill me I just want to have fun but just the fact that I accidentally crack my friend windshield fuckin bothers me like crazy. I can just go on about this be ause I just feel so terribly bad . I M truly sorry for what happen and I feel like I needa do something for her so I don't fe this guilty. I wish I had a job so I can pay her back as soon as possible I absolutely can not ask my parents because it's not their fault it's mine . Fuck my life fuck it fuck it fuck it