The only site where I can just express my feelings right now since no one I know knows I have this site . I just need some answers on what to do and how to fix this situation can't even fuckkn sleep. Because of all this guilt

I can't help but think what happen. It is really bothering me right now I feel songuilty even though I didn't even mean to do it , it still bothers me like crazy right now I can't even go to sleep because I keep thinking about it even though I'm really trying to not think bout it but ugh . I feel like a bad friend I really don't know what to say or do. I know it was a accident but it is still my fault for this to happen, it maybe just a car windshield but it's really a big deal to me I just can't stop thinking bout it. It's freaking killing me I try to not think about it even tho she say it's okay it really not okay atleast not for me. Why must this situation even happen I wish it never happen I just wanna cry it out . I felt like I did something really horrible that's all I think about is that I feel like a horrible person right now . Honestly if it wasn't for tha damn bee neon I'm the car none of this fucking shit would happen I couldnt help but spaz out I was scared now this bee made a worst situation for me atleast ugh what the fuck do I do. I feel like I can't tell anyone how bad and guilty I feel for this. We all going to be going to wet n wild and I really don't wanna think about it but inside it's gonna kill me I just want to have fun but just the fact that I accidentally crack my friend windshield fuckin bothers me like crazy. I can just go on about this be ause I just feel so terribly bad . I M truly sorry for what happen and I feel like I needa do something for her so I don't fe this guilty. I wish I had a job so I can pay her back as soon as possible I absolutely can not ask my parents because it's not their fault it's mine . Fuck my life fuck it fuck it fuck it

feels like i can post on here since nobody will be able to see it my last place where no one i really know i have this site. well today i accidentally broke my car window shield i don't know how i did but i did it . there was a bee on the floor in her car and was about to come right at me so i ran out and she told me omg u broke my window i was like omg what the fuck i really don't know how i did it i know i didn't hit my head on it cause i would of felt it hit my head. i feel so bad i don't know what to do i know i have to pay back but i dont even have any money and i don't wanna tell my mom cause she would be so fucking pissed at me and she already spent enough stuff on me. i really don't know what to do i don't have a job right now i'm in the process of looking for one and i will for sure pay her back i want to pay it with my own money since it's my fault for doing this. i feel like cryig cause i never been in this situation and since it's my best friend car i really don't know what to do . i feel so sad depress i just ugh i don't know what to do in this situation i really don't want her to be mad but i mean who wouldn't if you had a crack on your car window shield. i really don't even know who else to talk to . i just want to cry i just want to know how it happened if it wasn't for that damn bee i wouldn't be in this situation right now i just want to cry my heart out i feel like a bad person